10th month from 10/10/10, 10:10:10.

May our love story,

be the perfect story.

You wont be lonely,

because I will be there shortly.

Things will never go wrongly,

if we solve it positively.

And you wont have to sorry,

because things will then be going smoothly.

You have your own beauty,

that stunts me completely.

Falling in love is not responsible by gravity,

but I love you pure heartedly.

I wrote it myself.

Hope you'll like it.

I'll wait for the next "10th".

I love you!

<3

I'm just going to stand there,

do whatever she wants.

Till the day it's time,

nothing will change the past.

Promises you've made,

promises you've broke.

If promises are your fate,

then you must be fake.

;(

I trust you...

Just don't tear me up in pieces anymore...

It's very hard to stand strong now.

When you sacrifice so many of yourself,

spent time taking care of your loved ones,

fulfilling their need of love,

killing yourself inside-out for them,

being the best,

and they don't show appreciation, yet ignorance.

What's the point?

;'(

9th month

<3

I love you so much!

Thanks for being with me all the time

=)

Great day..

I really really had a great time with you today.

Thanks for everything honey...

You played so well in piano today.

Thanks for teaching me.

I hope one day I'll play it to you to go to sleep.

I love you so much baby.

I love you.

Thank you for everything.

=)

Waiting for that change...

When will it be?

You weren't like before anymore...

You wont listen now...

You talk back...

*sigh...

Appreciate..

Appreciate..

Appreciate..

Appreciate..

Appreciate...

If you would like or love to...

Tear my fragile heart apart.

Love is like a rubber band. We keep pulling, someone lets go and it hurts the one who held on.

Last time...

Being with me calms you down.

Right now...

It's not calming anymore...

8th Month

8 months into this relationship.

Love you so much my dear.

I love you with all my heart.

I know sometimes I'm hard on you, but it's for your own good.

The movie was great today.

Pirates of the Caribbean.

Today was great.

Thanks a lot darling,

Kissed you in the cinema.

It was great.

Soft and moist lips...

How wonderful...

Happy 8th month my dear.

I love you with all my heart.

*kisses lips gently..

<3

=)

You're coming back today...

Please be quick darling.

I miss you..

=)

Hope you'll enjoy your trip my dear...

I'll miss you a lot.

=)

Have fun darling...

I'll be waiting..

I've shed so much tears

T.T

I'm useless

You make me feel so.

Happy 16th birthday! =D

Happy 16th birthday to me! =D

Family bought me to dinner at a hotel.

It was nice! =D

Thanks to all my friends who wished me a very happy birthday.

All of you are the best!

Thanks darling for your gift.

It's wonderful! =)

Love you lots baby!

Had a great day today..

Thank you all!

For all the apologies,

for all the promises,

prove it well.

You never know how much you hurt me...

You never understand how I felt...

You never filter things that you said to me...

Can you please change...

Bear it in mind...

Glad to hear that you're fine darling...

So worried that I forgot to shower for the day =D

Thanks for reminding.

Hehe...

I hope you will get well dear...

Don't want that pain there.

=)

Get well soon darling!

Love you always. =)

Thought you'll feel proud...

Thought I'll be your pride...

Guess like I'm wrong.

Sorry if I can't please you.

But please be happy about my achievements...

Thought I could make you proud...

"Change the way you see things, and the things you see will change."

Please?

:'(

What the fuck happened?

What's too late?

What's not going to change?

What the fuck?

What do I know?

Can you stop hiding things already?

Be honest with me!

7th Month. ♥

Love

Although there are times that we're upset, angry at each other, arguing over little things,

but I want to let you know.

I'll love you, no matter what.

I love you. =)

Be my penguin, f♥rever.

*kisses lips...

I love you more than words can describe.

So happy to have you with me.

You're the best thing I've ever had =)

Never ignore a person who loves you,

cares for you,

and misses you.

Because one day,

you might wake up from your sleep and realize that you lost the moon while counting the stars.

Guess it's destiny.

Or was it me?

Tomorrow...

I did these for your own good.

Can you appreciate it?

Can you feel how much I care about you?

I wouldn't be standing here if I don't love you.

Can you just...

Never mind...

=(

At times you still wouldn't listen to me.

Can you understand its for your own good?

Maybe you don't know how worried I am.

Maybe I don't understand.

And I can't really express it.

I'm sorry.

After all these time..

All these things I did for you..

Is this how you pay them back?

I hope my predictions aren't real...

='(

A very bad, bad, bad, impression.

I wish I could, but I can't.

I hope I still can fulfill your needs...

And hopefully you will accept them.

WHY THE FUCK MUST YOU KEEP ON REMIND ME ABOUT IT?

CAN YOU STOP IT?

PLEASE!

Be positive.

Make the best out of everything,

not to expect everything to be the best.

I can't calm you down the way I could like last time.

I hate it when you can't clam down.

Please.

Calm down!

=(

You could help yourself, the most.

Not us.

Stop doing this...

Please...

I can't just let you go.

I can't...!

I can't let you rot like this.

Stop doing it already...

Please...

Before its too late for me...

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"Fuck off!"

I'll go.

Bye.

I'll fuck myself off.

Bye.

How I wish you don't need to be that harsh..

"Go away".

If only this word never exist.

You'll never know how much I hate this word.

If only I could too..

6th month dear...

I love you.

You're forgiven.

For such sin you committed, you're forgiven.

Maybe no one understand you as much as I do,

no one appreciate you the way I do.

But bear in mind, I'm always the one.

I'm sorry if I didn't give you the attention you want.

But I hope you'll control over yourself.

Don't lose yourself to him.

I'm in such rage when I find it out.

But I realize I could only forgive.

Now I'll forgive you.

It may be hard to forgive yourself.

But you're forgiven.

Stop contacting him is all I want.

And try to control over yourself.

I really hate to say this,

but I was really really heart broken.

How could this happen.

When I was guessing,

I least expected this.

Turns out, I'm right.

Promise me this will be the first and the last time.

Or else I wont know what I will do.

Don't shatter my hope and my trust.

Because that's what matters the most.

I trust you.

Let's have a new beginning in your life.

I love you.

I still do.

I realized sometimes,

I'm such a failure for you..

I see no point to talk when no one wants to listen.

You wont listen to me now...

What am I already?

Piece of junk I guess.

As if I'm nothing

I really really don't like it when you threaten me.

But I can't risk to not respond to your threat.

Silly me, ain't I?

Or maybe I just don't understand you that much..

You're making me unable to care about you and comfort you at the time you need them

I'm such a loser...

Such as bad boyfriend...

I can't protect you...

I can't even keep this relationship going well..

I'm so useless...

I can't make you listen to my advise...

I'm sorry I suck.

I hate empty promises...

Could you please change...

You'll never know how much tears I've shed for you.

How could you say such thing.

Be careful for what you wished for.

If you believe you can, you probably can.

If you believe you won't, you most assuredly won't.

Belief is the ignition switch that gets you off the launching pad.

~

Denis Waitley

All I get is a "no" when I'm trying to help you

I'm speechless once again.

How nice is it to cut yourself?

Very nice?

Have you ever think of the scars?

Thought you say you would take it positively...

Stop cutting yourself already please?

If only you know how painful my heart is.

Guess you don't?

When will you stop cutting yourself?

I'm holding myself on the border of telling your parents.

You know you don't want it.

Please stop cutting yourself.

THINK,THINK,THINK before you take any actions.

Your mind is easily manipulated...

I don't want a "sorry" that has no meaning, no guilt.

I don't want a promise that has no promises, no meaning.

I'm not blaming.

I'm just saying.

Ask yourself.

What does your promises means?

Ask yourself.

What did you promised me not to do?

Ask yourself.

Is it fun, nice, or whatever is it, to do it?

Think about it yourself.

It's our promise....

WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKING!

I don't understand this...

I did as you wanted to..

And..

:'(

Thought I could make you feel better...

But...

I'm so sorry.

I don't like to play mind games.

I suck it in.

Sorry if I made you upset.

Sorry I suck in mind games..

Or should I even consider them mind games...

On 17/3/2011, 7:42am

Finally, I did it.

Mount Kibabalu, Low's peak.

4092m above sea level,

highest mountain in Malaysia.

=D

Thank you for your support dear..

I'll bring you there next time

It's very nice...

Almost had tears of joy when I reached the summit.

It's really really very nice..

Mount Kinabalu!

Wish me all the best!!

=D

See you after 4 days dear..

I love you

=)

Hope you'll appreciate every moment you have with me

whether I'm there with you or not,

at least I'm still here.

5th month...

What would I do without you?

You are always there for me...

We share our sorrow and happiness.

What would I do without you?

Never could imagine life without you...

It will be so dull...

So pointless...

So boring...

Dear...

I love you...

Thank you for being with me...

You mean a lot to me.

I love you...

Life is different with you.

I'm so glad to have you with me..

I'll never leave you..

Never..

Ever..

You mean so much to me, you are my everything...

I love you more than words can express.

I love you...

Happy 5th month my dear...

Thanks for being with me all these times...

Through sorrow and happiness, you are always there for me...

I love you...

<3

I reached my hands out for you.

Grab it.

And I'll rescue you.

You promised me...

=(

Please...

Stop it...

Please...

I don't want it all over you

:'(

I remember today... =)

*kisses lips

Sorry?

Twice.

It happened, twice.

Please understand...

Thank you...

I wont say everything here...

I'll just hope you will realize it somehow, someday.

I love you...

Please understand...

Sometimes, just admit it...

I can read your emotions, your words behind words.

I can tell...

I know you too well to hide feelings away from me.

I know when you are upset, when you are not.

Just admit it and we'll talk about it...

Don't hide feelings away from me...

Good night...

See you tomorrow.

I love you...

♥Soul meets soul on lover's lips♥

I met you

*kisses lips

Time to come back to my arms honey...

Be quick

=)

I miss you a lot...

<3

See you in 3 days.

Have a safe journey darling.

=)

I'll miss you a lot tomorrow...

Life is bored without you...

I want you to be with me.

See you dear...

Remember, 4am later =)

<3

Sports day II

It was hot today...
Despite the heavy rain in the morning.
Don't know what to write about...

Dear,I had fun shopping with you.
Although you got upset, I still enjoyed being with you.
=)
And I enjoyed it.
You know what is it... Hehe.
Love you lots baby!

Very lazy to write...
:S
So I guess...
Bye! =P

Sports Day I

Our school is having sports day today...

Students are compulsory to go, for 2 days and Friday isn't a holiday.

Damn...!

Went to the stadium at around 6:3o in the morning...

Look for my dear straight afterwards.

After hanging around for some time, went to the field to take our attendance.

Then, free to seat~

We found this spot that isn't away from the sun, but its such a cloudy day today so it doesn't matter much.

It's bored.

Seriously.

Just sit and talk to my dear..

Enough already.

She's leaving to KL this Friday =(

Must be a bored day that day...

At lunch break, we went to a Parkson to have lunch.

Went shopping for my dear's dress after that..

A sexy dress for a birthday party.

Whee~

Went to archery after that...

Sneaked a kiss with my dear.

Aww...!

I miss your lips dear...

I miss kissing you...

Went back to the stadium after archery.

It was fun!!

Going again tomorrow.

Whee~!

Dear is sleeping now...

Good night dear...

I'm going to bed now.

See ya tomorrow honey.

=)

I love you!

Had a great day with you today...

I almost spent 24 hours with you.

=)

I like walking with you in the mall holding your hands dear...

I don't mind them much.

It's not that they don't know we're dating =P

Mmm...

Tomorrow is going to be another day with you.

Then... 3 days without you ><

See ya baby!

I love you

Forever

I don't like it when you lie to me.

In any way.

I know it hurts you to lie to me and to hurt me.

It's suicidal.

Don't hurt me and you wont hurt yourself, don't hurt yourself and you wont hurt me.

Did I interrupted your privacy...

Sorry...

Sorry...

Sorry...

I just care about you.

Valentine's Day...

Happy valentine's day =)

Received gift from my dear today.

Aww...

Love you lots dear! =)

<3

Stay forever =)

4th month

today might not be a very happy day for us...

but it doesn't matter now.

I love you dear..

Prefect interview..

Good luck on my interview for prefect tomorrow!

God bless :D

Dream half-way come true~

Sick...

I'm sick after waking up from my afternoon nap.
Fever..
Damn it!
I don't want to miss school :S
Please let me recover by tomorrow ><

Take care of me baby

Just say yes...
Those are words from my heart...

Just hope you will.
There are things that I can't speak it out in it.

It's okay dear...
I forgave you already...
Don't need to apologize already...
You're forgiven.
=)
I love you dear...
Only you.
I promise, too.

Happy Chinese new year...!

Happy Chinese new year everyone!
May the year of rabbit bring you and your family plenty of joy, laughter, fortune and happiness!!
Happy Chinese new year!

Let the sky light up by colorful fireworks,
our life begin a new journey,
and make it a better year!!
Happy Chinese new year everyone!!

1 month ago.
=)
I love you so much dear...
I love you.
<3

See you my dear...
Meet again in 5 days time.
I'll miss you a lot this time...
I love you...
Have a safe and nice trip back to your hometown.
Happy Chinese New Year

1 month ago
I hope I never have to remember it

I'm just worried and cared about you...
Wanting to know where are you and how are you.
Why aren't you online in the morning without telling me...
Don't need to answer me like that.

Please keep your cool.
And.
Listen to me.
=)

Promise me...

I thought you hate people doing it...
I thought I heard you saying you wont do it...
Listen to me dear...
I always want the best out of you...
Okay?
Don't get the worst to yourself...
Stop it already...
You said you want me to be the leader of this relationship.
Remember?
But what's a leader, when his follower don't listen to him?
Listen to me dear...
Stop it already...
Don't answer me with "no promises".
I hate that word.
As well as " it doesn't matter" and such.
Don't reject me.
I hate it...

Every time you're angry...
I just want you to calm down...
Don't fight with me when you're angry...
Okay?
Listen to me and I can calm you down...
Stop talking back...
Stop fighting back...
Okay dear?

Promise me you wont do it again...
:'(

3rd month

It's our 3rd month..
Until forever. =)
I love you baby...!
<3

"Change the way you see things, and the things you see will change".

At least I'm back safely...

Great Beginnig

Not late for a great whole new beginning...
We'll just date secretly.
=)

It's 01/01/2011.
Happy new year everyone =)